The rollercoaster ride of a first-time mum

Being a first-time mum is overwhelming, challenging yet extremely rewarding. Every step is learning a long with the way with some of it coming naturally but in the end going with your instinct and what feels right for you. Everyone parents differently but we most of us just want the best for our child. Now over six months in to my journey I find I am constantly overwhelmed at the constant debate over what is right and wrong for your child. Lately, it has been regarding vaccines. After reading some research on Facebook about vaccines possibly causing harm to babies, I immediately started doubting myself with the forever recurring "what if" thought popping in to my mind. "What if vaccinating Finn resulted in something bad happening to him?". However, I had never really considered this thought up until now and he had been vaccinated when he was due for them. Did I want to continue vaccinating? Both Chance and I had been vaccinated and we're fine? After looking in to it more, I was reassured that what I was doing was the right thing by vaccinating my child, and in the end if I had decided to stop it, I know it would never have felt right. That's not to say this is the right choice for everybody, and that's why everyone has a choice. This isn't the only thing I have questioned myself over since my son was born. Supplementing at night with formula was another because I knew breast was best which is why I am still breastfeeding and will for as long as I can, but as a young new mum, introducing formula for my hungry hungry boy was the best thing I could have done. At the end of the day, I, like many other new mums are trying their hardest to do what's best for their child and instead of criticising ourselves we need to look at what we are doing right. Unfortunately for me, anxiety reared its ugly head when my son was born (never had it before) and I find myself anxious over everything I'm doing or not doing. I'm still an amatuer and I am going to mistakes but I have the most beautiful, most healthy, thriving little boy in front of me so I must be doing something right! xx